It’s one thing to find someone who already knows their partner is a narcissist; it’s quite another to meet someone who’s still stuck in a relationship with no clue why life is so filled with conflict, confusion, and chaos.
What an “a-ha” moment to figure out the root cause of all the trouble, to understand that the problem is surprisingly common, and has a name.
Mine was an unusual discovery, and I first got a hint of what was going on when my severe malignant narcissist ex-wife called me a narcissist.
I had known for many years that she projected her own negative traits onto others; that was actually the first narcissistic trait that I had identified in her. So, when she made this comment, I decided to look up “narcissist” online, found a general article on Wikipedia, and what I read made my jaw hit the floor. It was the moment that my long journey of discovery and, eventually, healing began.
Lisa and I often discuss how we can find those people who are still in the dark – those we can do so much for. After all, they’re not online searching for “narcissist” because they have yet to figure it out.
So, we posted the question, “How did you realize your spouse or significant other was a narcissist?” on Quora, where there is a robust community of people in recovery from narcissistic abuse. The answers were fascinating and diverse, but common themes emerged also.
Most people realized there was something “off” about their partner while still entrenched in their relationship, and long before having any clue about what narcissism actually was.
Bill, for example, had been trained to choose his words very carefully so as not to set off his partner (the common term for this is “walking on eggshells”). When he’d finally had enough of her controlling behavior and said so, the angry backlash he suffered led him to look up what it means to be a pathological liar. The description matched perfectly. Later, he uncovered infidelity and more online searches helped him put it all together.
In the responses we received, it seemed like the majority of people didn’t realize that narcissism (or another toxic personality disorder) was the core problem until after the relationship ended. Instead they recognized individual traits, and only later managed to connect the dots.
Estelle noted all of the following narcissistic traits in her partner before seeing the whole picture:
- Blaming and lack of accountability
- Silent treatment as a form of control and punishment
- She had to do all the emotional work on the relationship
- Lack of empathy
- Chronic infidelity
- Pathological lying
Benjamin suffered from the effects of Complex PTSD and couldn’t come to grips with how completely uncaring his partner was. He did finally recognize a flood of symptoms, including:
- Lack of empathy
- Lack of remorse
- Lack of emotional intelligence
- Victim mentality
- Emotional coldness
Before Michelle knew it was narcissism, the first thing she recalled thinking was how strange it was that her partner never complimented her sincerely. On the contrary, he’d routinely make snide remarks about how she was “dressed up” when all she had really done was put on a little makeup. Interestingly, he didn’t start behaving this way until after they were married, which is typical, as an abuser’s behavior can dramatically change after a victim is secured in the relationship.